As I sat at work yesterday I was reminiscing of my past, mindful thoughts of those who have hurt me. Hurt me beyond what any individual should experience, people I trusted my life and heart with. I started to get upset and angry at them all over again like I had just ripped off the band-aid. As I thought of the words if I ever had the chance to say to them would be… I became still. Still in the moment where my heart and mind connected and I just took a deep breathe to re-collect. How many of us are holding on to anger and even though we think its a moment done and gone you tend to re-live it? In order to really forgive we need to break thru these walls of self justification, we need to open our hearts. “Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.” (Matthew 5:8) If I am seeking the path of God how do I turn my heart that has anger, bitterness and sadness towards others into “forgiveness”?
I reflected on how many others in my life have ever forgiven & I mean really forgiven me? Because so many people I myself included will say “I forgive you”, but then bring up that mistake over and over again. Hebrews 8:12 “For I will be merciful to the unrighteousness & their sins be unlawful deeds I will remember no more.”
This is one of those things that as we hang onto the bitterness, greed,
anger and the hardest part is reflecting in love. Everyone has made some bad decisions and we do not know what path of regret they are walking after they hurt you. The only one to pass judgement on them is our lord for they will meet the maker one day, its not my job to do so. Think about those who you have a hard time forgiving and somewhere find peace in your heart and in your mind it will make your soul so much happier. (A trait I work on every day)