When There’s Doubt

I promised myself when starting this blog to always keep it real for that is the truth being told. I know it’s experiences that we all go thru and struggle with sometimes so I will need your support as well.

Recently while walking in the path of this New Year (yeap day 3) I have witnessed some pretty painful removals from my life. They say god keeps giving you the same lesson until you finally learn it well this time I think I got it. Did you ever pray so hard for something and no matter how hard you talked to god it never manifested?

I told you all I would keep it honest and I prayed so hard that the love of my life and I could have another chance, that he may finally see ME AS I REALLY AM! But god had a different plan for him for he is getting married and having a baby. All the dreams I had with him are now gone and I must learn to let go inevitably.  The pain is of course unreal and the hurt that god didn’t answer my prayers leaves so much doubt. I can sit and be angry but its not going to change the facts or gods plan…..

My friend who has been a follower of Christ for quite some time just keeps reminding me to trust in him and I am weary.

What advice you all have for me? I could use some pointers on re-grouping right about NOW!


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At 42 years old I'm finally learning the purpose of life. Life changed for me this year in ways I could never have imagined, at my darkest days God showed me the light and brought me back to life. Sometimes you must lose it all in order to start again and this time with meaning. Being greatful for the blessings you have and for the blessing you can bestow on others. Realizing what is truly important in life is the impact you bring on others. I had always wanted to use my personal training to give women back power, power that I felt the first time I fell after a bad break up. I used training to rebuild myself but as explained in My Story is was never a complete rebuild. This year being ripped to my core I was able to rebuild myself not in the physical sense this time but the mental, emotional and spiritual foundations. See being fit is about completion of mind, body & spirit. I want to be able to help women see their true potential in life and each other.

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