Remembering The Rebuild

If you read my blog from Wednesday and dealing with what I feel is “devastating” news, a moment to regroup can ease things a “little”. I know I can’t understand god’s plan or why he didn’t answer my prayers but I can look back at 2017 and the re-build of myself. I know I trusted god to start me in the journey and the changes that made me only made me a stronger woman after the breakdown. Each moment we live we may disagree with but do we stop trusting god? When I found out the news you better believe I wanted to give up my faith. I mean it’s easier for me to join the enemy and go back to drinking and smoking weed to hide from the pain, that’s what the devil wants MY POWER again. Well I will not do it! I reflected on where I came from originally “MY MODEL” my family which is what shaped me, my parents & their habits (addictions), my siblings and their afflictions things that were outside of my control but yet had impact on my being & molded me none the less. I reflected and reviewed the woman in the mirror who I AM currently today and not yesterday, going over the positive elements I bring to the world. I may not see the true impact of what I bring but I can tell you I am more WHOLE in my true self than I have ever been. Was I going to let this devastation change all this? No some how I must rise against this learn to wish him well and LET HIM GO! He is not apart of my story anymore, he does not get to live in the “moments’ I get to create nor am I going to miss out the opportunities of my present and future by living in the past. See I learned with so many losses that moments are rare, once in a lifetime opportunities and I have been blessed to take them….LIVE THEM!

What is part of my dream from hear on out? Who is apart of my team in 2018 (need to make sure who I welcome in my life is going to support me in making things happen)?  Sometimes when you feel like falling apart remember your rebuild because it was all worth it and there is no turning back.

“Thy Will Be Done Lord”


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At 42 years old I'm finally learning the purpose of life. Life changed for me this year in ways I could never have imagined, at my darkest days God showed me the light and brought me back to life. Sometimes you must lose it all in order to start again and this time with meaning. Being greatful for the blessings you have and for the blessing you can bestow on others. Realizing what is truly important in life is the impact you bring on others. I had always wanted to use my personal training to give women back power, power that I felt the first time I fell after a bad break up. I used training to rebuild myself but as explained in My Story is was never a complete rebuild. This year being ripped to my core I was able to rebuild myself not in the physical sense this time but the mental, emotional and spiritual foundations. See being fit is about completion of mind, body & spirit. I want to be able to help women see their true potential in life and each other.

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