The past couple weeks I have fallen back into the same routine I promised myself I would never again. What is that you ask? Being sucked back into the my old habits, obsessing about the gym, the look, the crowd, working all these crazy hours that I start to lose myself again. I noticed that when offered a drink I just can’t have one I need to drink til I don’t remember anything the next day. Not only that and most importantly my relationship with god was becoming non-existent. If I can make time for the gym & social events then why couldn’t I find the time for god? This morning I had a talk with god and asked him to help me find my way back to him. Help me take more time to enjoy the quality of time and life’s moments rather than working all the time. I know that there are so many things bothering me lately and with that I noticed I resort back to the comfortable rather than being uncomfortable for the next transformation. This morning at church not only did it open with my favorite song “What A Beautiful Name” (I felt that was a sign god heard me)but today’s message was about being true to god even when things seem rough and we feel he’s not there, he is. I’m learning that god is taking me down these paths for growth and development so instead of running from them with my lifestyle I need to stay calm & ride the storm. Easier said than done for sure! I needed to remind myself of why I am here on earth and that is to serve others, so I signed up to serve at church on Sundays. I also reached out to see what groups are available to me on the days I have off so I can get more involved, stay connected to my true self and the lord. Remember I talked previously spoke about how god will put people into your life for a reason, well every Sunday at 9:00 mass there an usher named Cathy, we tell each other how our weeks went and she came to me and said I missed ya last Sunday, you ok? I said Cathy Mothers Day is always hard for me so instead of coming to church I stayed at home and just did me, isolating myself from the world. Cathy began to tell me that for her mother’s day her kids live in other states so she has no body and my heart sank. I had no mother and she had no kids to celebrate that day with her, she told me if I would have known you didn’t have a mom I would have invited you over. You know how Oprah has those Ah-Ha moments well that was mine, god will put people in your life that will change your perspective once again. Cathy and I exchanged numbers so we can meet for coffee and talk….he’s funny how he works?! I took that moment at church and remembered my blog about how we need to stop and re-group every once in a while well today was my total regroup plan put into action. If many of you have fallen pick your self back up and know with him all things are possible. We are not made in the perfection of society we are made in his eyes of perfection with all our flaws and scars.
1 Peter 2:9
9 But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.