Its been awhile I know! See I get back from Texas and although things are great …LIFE IS SUPER BUSY AGAIN. I look at that in 2 ways (1) everything I have been striving to be successful in is happening (2) I am keeping myself so busy that I am running from what’s happening in my life. I have finally taken some time off of work from both jobs to do a re-set, a re-group, something I never thought was necessary until my self discovery in Texas. I have spent the last couple days just taking life at a turtle pace and I have to tell you as nice as it is its so hard for me to do. See I’m a planner I plan everything but in planning I realized you miss to see the beauty in the uncertain sometimes, I am learning to “stop and smell the roses” as my mother used to say. These past couple mornings while off I get to just sit on the balcony with my coffee and self reflect. Reflection of what has been going on in all avenues of my life and when did the strife for the fast lane start, see I promised myself when I was in Texas coming back I was going to start to enjoy living & LIFE! So far I have been working 2 jobs and always on the go til exhaustion. This morning I recalled when the emotional crisis kicked in and my coping mechanisms started. It was the day when Michael got married the day I saw the photos the pain of seeing that moment triggered it all. You don’t realize what you’re doing until you are engulfed again wondering how the hell did you get there? It’s been easy to fill my time with work than to sit in the emotions that weigh heavy on my heart. In walking the path of Christ I realized that Satan will hit you in the areas that matter the most to you. With that in all the blessings that were in store for me to embrace I embraced the negative emotion that put me into overdrive. See the enemy will stop life from being fun, take away all the things God gave to you for enjoyment. The devil wants your mind, your “power” and he will keep playing til it wears you down. Your car broke down, you’ve been threatened to lose your job…the devil doesn’t want your car, he doesn’t want your job, he wants your JOY! Joy a term we discussed previously which is different than happiness, JOY is pure to the heart and soul, happiness is surface based. How many times have you let the ENEMY have your JOY? He is using what you care about so you lose your mind succumb your power to the negative. God tells us not to be distracted, we can be so caught up in the UN-promises of tomorrow that we miss the promises of today. We are looking for what could happen and not embracing what is happening, your blessings around you EVERY DAY! Although all these things I did ask god for success’ in both my full time job & my personal training I don’t think he ever meant it to be so busy that I didn’t have time for him anymore. I was losing “my vision”, living my life out of focus see I learned having god’s word keeps everything in ‘FOCUS” & real perspective. God said if you believe in me I will give you more than you ever expected. If you focus on what I need, I will focus on what you need. I just need to slow down and enjoy what path is set forth don’t over do it, enjoy the now and not the will be for he has me! We are always trying to change the path, make decisions based on what we want and forget that our story is already written. We can’t change it we need to embrace all the emotions, moments, & memories as its happening….that is life and living! Our story has just to enfold before us and I’m excited with this “re-set” I get to enjoy some of my story.
Is it your time to RE-SET?