When revisiting your dreams and goals again you are forced to go thru a breakdown all over. Looking at the areas that you’ve been struggling with and finding solutions allows some negative emotion in. I feel at those moments the enemy plays in areas that you have passion for, drives your weakness’ deeper. These past couple weeks being off I self reflected a lot and have noticed that in areas I have passion for I have fallen more for the temptation in it instead of enjoying the joy in my passion. The gym for example I promised myself that I would never get sucked back into the gym lifestyle again. Going back I was head strong and full force that my passion of training is what I strived for, helping people. After a couple months I was finding myself living for the gym again, even when I didn’t have to work I would go rather than taking “me” time, to spend with my dogs, read, LIVE. All I was focusing on was my look, my gains, I know in my heart its good but its not what counts. Its like when god gave me my joy of training again, the enemy said “I Got you where I need you….let’s play.” The gym also was full of temptation around every corner & as I promised previously I was not going to even think about getting involved with someone from the gym, from my experience they are more self absorbed than anything. Well once again the enemy stepped and I thought I met someone genuine to the core, someone who seemed experienced many trials in life and was transitioning into a peaceful state. Um no he was a good sales man and sold me, was a learning lesson no doubt. Its in these occurrences I have learned to re-group time after time, constantly being a work in progress. That being said the most important thru all this is that in the hustle of life we maintain our relationship with God. With that we stay on course, see a little more clearly and not thru a fog. I’m done standing in the fog its time to talk to god, step out again and live.