When The Angels Celebrate

 

Today at church it was BAPTISM, if any of you have been baptized you know the glory of how it feels to burst out of the water in Newness & Life. Our pastor opened in speaking of 3 types of people in faith, the believers, the skeptics and the curious. I think at one point we all cross each of those stages. As the curious we wonder in doubt if he exists, always asking WHY & never truly understanding if he exists why does he allow things to happen. See our God is so good that he will not force any relationship with you and will stand by as you question him and he waits to show you little by little of his existence. Jeremiah 29:13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

As he begins to show you, you become skeptical asking “What if?” “What if he is real?” After Jesus’ resurrection he appeared to his friends who only needed to see him. People spoke of his resurrection and his coming back but Thomas his disciple was skeptical and in John 24:24-29  he said to them, “Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe.”

26 A week later his disciples were in the house again, and Thomas was with them. Though the doors were locked, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you!” 27 Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe.”

28 Thomas said to him, “My Lord and my God!”

29 Then Jesus told him, “Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.” So powerful that moment when Jesus showed himself to those who questioned. Sometimes you just need to talk to Jesus and ask him to show up and because you have opened that door I promise you he will show up. See as stated he will never force a relationship upon you but will be present when you ask.  Now the believers, even as a believer you will have to be open and continue to welcome him into your heart, your life and with that he will live thru you. Its not easy but thru you others can see what he is doing and in that you become part of his welcome committee. See we cannot change others but we can change ourselves in a manner that they can see what the grace of god is doing. I share my life experiences with others so they may know that even the darkest moments you have can the light just welcome him.  Today to watch those who were once curious and skeptical open their heart and minds to the wonders of Jesus became BELIEVERS. They say that thru baptism when people proclaim God the father & repent of their past the angels in heaven sing and party. Today I re-lived mine in 2017, what an amazing event to watch, brought a tear to the eye. BELIEVE, RECEIVE & BECOME!!!!!!!!

 

When Your Heart Fools You

 

In my new journey forward as I told you in my last writing I want to shed some “Old Leather ” as Lady Gaga references in her song “Million Reasons”. I had to come to the reality that if I tell this man who has not only been one of my best friends but my lover that I could not continue to just be the friend with benefits any more  he might leave forever. Even before Michael left he was there for me, a co-worker at first which molded into a friendship which turned into more.  We spent every other weekend together, talking, laughing and what I felt was something amazing. I had never experienced passion like I had with him, was my heart making more than what it was? I saw him everyday and paid attention to everything about him but when it came to me and what was important, my blog for instance he never showed his interest. I could tell you how many smiles he has, when he’s stressed and when hes sad, BUT he couldn’t see ME. After awhile especially these past weeks when I reached out in distress he would respond at convenience or not at all. On Tuesday I told him I couldn’t do it anymore I fell in love with him and what I thought was something. After I hit send (yes I sent it in text) I was hoping for something a response, but I didn’t get a thing. The next day my final day to see him on the job and he didn’t look at me and never said good bye as I walked out of those doors for the last time. I worked at the gym for the last time Wednesday night as well, in between clients constantly checking my phone hoping for a response, but I got nothing. The next morning I reached out and he said that if I feel I missed out on opportunities to go find them. I poured out my heart in hopes if there was something in his heart he would say it to me , stop me from leaving! Days have gone by & I haven’t heard a thing. I know for myself I had to do something I couldn’t just be that “girl” all the time and because I fell in love with him I was not able to give others chances with me. With these new beginnings ahead of me I needed to see where I stood and I guess now I know. I cry alot and ask God to give me the strength to get thru this for his gave me the courage to stand for myself. Time heals all wounds and if its meant to be it will be.

Psalm 34:18 ‘The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit’